Prompt #6: What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
Now this is a sore spot. The fact that I have never experienced the death of someone very close to me, a terrible illness, or any traumatising tragedy has been a constant source of guilt for me. Everyone else has these huge burdens and heartaches that they’ve been through. Me? I live an apple pie life. Everything I have has been given to me. Others have struggled so that I can have the life I have. I haven’t had trials and storms and stumbling blocks thrown in my way. I’m grateful, but indebted.
Yet with my uninhibited life, I only manage to complain. Despite all I have, I’ve always felt persecuted, misunderstood, and ignored by the people in my life who I consider “worldly.” Without reason or cause, I’ve often felt so sad, lost, and broken-down. Having these feelings is another constant source of guilt. But I’ve tried to accept the realization that not having some great tragedy of my life doesn’t make me a bad person. It makes me blessed. Blessed so that I can try to help others who have real pain and sorrow.
Anyway, going back to the actual point, I really can’t think of the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced. And that’s ok.